To change the structure of my mind. The need to alter its habits, ways of thinking, imaging, constructing.
Meditating daily for the past 18 days. Can sense the brain shifting into a new orbit.
Walking to the library this afternoon I saw life as something new - no start, no end, each breath perhaps the last for the body, but the ground-base of mind continues to shine. To remain aware and positive, to bathe the mind in love and kindness. Surrounded by a world of negativity and anger, is this possible, and if so, how long will it take? Is this world of people and objects simply another construction of mind - negativity of mannerisms, words, actions, just another trick of mind to keep the ego alive? Is the death of ego the birth of freedom?
Walking to the library, I reminded myself of meditation practice - bring the mind home, relax, and release. Then... a flow of life with no beginning or end, death is when the luminous mind leaves the body. Do I really want this body, and if so, what for? What does this body do? Losing it, why so difficult? Illusion, dream, this body is flimsy and unreal, soon to vanish. But the mind is brilliant light - how do I set it free, while still bound to the body? Love, kindness, positive energy, in all moments. How to achieve this? To form a habit? To practice every day, every hour, every breath.
