Having scored a relatively large tournament win so early in my poker routine I found myself contemplating upon the extra money, which of course I put into the poker fund. Having an extra $1200 creates an easy vibe for relaxed poker play because I can participate in 12 consecutive tournaments without a score and find myself back to even. However, I am estimating the probability of not cashing in 12 consecutive tournaments to be 25%, which is higher than I would like it to be because I don't think I would feel good seeing $1200 dribbled away during a one month poker drought. Although I love the challenge and psychological intensity of poker, my financial status in society is at the bottom of the barrel, monk level, loser, etc, so I cannot easily shrug off paying $1200 for a hobby. $1200 for a monk is 16 weeks food and leisure, or the full transportation costs for my recently completed SE Asian adventure. $1200 is too large a percentage of my net financial worth to be putting into play on the poker felt and so a reasonable conclusion is a monk should not play poker at the stakes offered in casinos. Poker, like chess and life, is all about making sound decisions based on logic, calculation, experience, and intuition, so the best decision I can make at this point is to drop poker as a hobby and choose one which is easier on a monk's budget.
So today I walked to the bank and deposited $2000 cash into my account and felt good about it because that amount buys an additional eight weeks time off from having to work wage jobs. What I will do with my free days before having to return to wage work is not yet determined but that is a task which will be pleasant to ponder.
