Studied chess at the library today, a shortened session due to Sunday hours.
Sunday, May 12, 2019
Full Time - Day 15
Since returning from SE Asia in March there has been one warm day over 70f and just a few days where the sky was blue. Out of 55 days 52 have been completely white and gray. I am still in the process of grieving for the imminent death of all life on earth, but as I walked home from the library today under a toxic white sky I had an insight which I have had before, but it seemed more clear, that time is not so much linear as it is circular, which means that although the current time is a deadly and diseased one for living things on earth, it should not be taken as more solid and real than a time 2000 years ago or a time 2000 years into the future, that all points of time past present and future are relative to and equal to one anther, which means that although consciousness can only be aware of a limited amount of things happening at any certain point of time, those things cannot be taken as any more important than any other, which means that although death is coming soon for everything on earth, the time is no different than any other point in time and circumstances of pleasure and pain, life and death, are insignificant to consciousness because consciousness is simply an observer of time and is outside of it, thus consciousness, when aware that it has no self and no body, has nothing to fear, nothing to be angry about, and nothing to do but observe until leaving the body and transitioning into some other form of consciousness.
Studied chess at the library today, a shortened session due to Sunday hours.
Studied chess at the library today, a shortened session due to Sunday hours.