Thursday, May 30, 2019

Full Time - Day 33 part II

Came across this random journal entry from 2016, when I was just beginning my chess quest -

Feb 17, 2016

Took the Howard train and 97 bus transfer to the Evanston Chess Club tonight. Arrived early and helped M set up the boards then watched her play through a Candidates game between Fisher/Larsen 1971, Denver. Half way through the game a man joined us in analyzing the game, and I admit I was irritated by his manner and words, one of those chess know-it-alls, bragging seemingly to build his own self worth. Does he realize how much a single snapshot in that game contains? He went on and on, his words exhibiting not only his arrogance, but also his ignorance. When G walked in M suggested I play him, but the loudmouth braggart said "no, I'm playing G". I did not say anything to that, and ended up playing S. Encountering this kind of ignorance/arrogance is a reason for me to shun attending club nights, and sticking to tournaments where people are forced to be quiet during play.

After playing S a few games the casual blitz round robin started, I did ok, but ended up a bit scattered once my clock was below one minute. When I played the braggart it was pleasant enough, but he had the awful habit of speaking out my moves when they caused him surprise. He played a good game and beat me, but he missed some kill shot moves to put me away sooner. I'd guess he is a grade B player, which is decent enough, but his attitude is grade F.

Dealing with people like F isn't too difficult, and although I am complaining about him in this entry, I realize that his words, just like mine and everyone else's, are meaningless clouds which quickly scatter and disappear - mere illusions meant to deceive with both their beauty and ugliness. The thing I need to keep in mind is that all words are deceptions, and although I can form judgments about the state of someone's mind through his actions and words, when it comes to the final analysis I know the judgments are inaccurate and the best thing to do is to always let go of the impressions, as easily as the words themselves let go of their own flimsy reality.