During the walk I found myself losing confidence in my individual future due to not having any idea of how to proceed and what kind of decisions to make regarding how to survive regarding the obtaining of money. I knew it was the curse of having a somewhat fuzzy awareness of possible future events, which leads to attempting to steer current events so that future events will be favorable, and when I deduce that most possible outcomes are likely to be unfavorable I have to work to avoid despair. So I focused on my breathing and the present moment and decided to let the future fall where it may, that I do not have the insight and the genius to find ways to get money other than the meanest of ways, that of low wage work.
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