Did a double walk today, 7 miles in the morning followed by 6 miles in the afternoon, stopped at the chess pavillion again and played an old eastern European guy, winning 5 and losing 1, same score as yesterday. Sky was pure white today, no blue, the atmosphere is dead, the scientists have killed the earth, not much anyone can do now but live life to the fullest and count down the days to death.
That being said I think it is a fair viewpoint considering the state of the earth and the age of my body to adopt an attitude that today will be my final day on earth. It brings a strong sense of pleasure and vigor to the day, and fear is nowhere to be found. If I happen to make it to bed at night I tell myself it will be my final sleep and I will not be waking up, and if I do happen to wake up in the morning then I begin the death process again. I had a similar way of viewing life in my early 20's and I really sucked the marrow out of life during that time and perhaps I can do something similar this time around.
If this is my final entry, you will know why.
